Journal 12

At the bottom of the stairs I felt helpless. Everyone was gathered over me, whispering to each other what to do. They finally decided that they’d go get Dr. Stanpole and Phil Lathem. They carried me out on a chair and brought me to the infirmary. I heard the doctor say, “It’s the leg again. Broken again. But a much cleaner break I think, much cleaner. A simple fracture.” You would think at this point I would be relieved that it hadn’t seemed to be as bad as last time, but I was angry that I had to go through the recovery again. When we got to the infirmary the doctors further explained what was going on. When everyone left my room I heard someone say something I couldn’t quite make it out so I said, “Who is it!” I then noticed that it was Gene I asked him, “You want to break something else in me! Is that why you’re here!” I reached out to try to hit him but it wasn’t enough I fell well everything but my legs fell. He pleaded, “I’m sorry, I’m sorry, I’m sorry.” I did not respond I was too busy trying to get myself back up. Finally, he left the infirmary. The next morning the doctor had told me that he left Gene a note to bring me my clothes. The last thing I wanted to see in the morning was Gene. I then confessed to Gene that I wish I had been in the war. He told me that either way with a normal leg or not I would not be good in the war. We then talked about the tree I said, “It was just some kind of blind impulse you had in the tree there, you didn’t know what you were doing. Was that it?” He told me that that was it, and that he would never believe it if I actually believed him. I actually did believe him I believed every word he said. He left and that was the last time Gene and I would ever talk. I went into surgery with Dr. Stanpole, for some reason I felt like this was a bad time like something wasn’t going to go as planned. That is exactly what happened. I saw the light as many people say. Truth is there is a light and halfway through my surgery my heart stopped and it was my turn to see the light and begin my journey to heaven.